catching up

Woooow, Last blog March 19. Feels like so long ago.... So much has happened in the past 6 months. Im a married man. Saying it, seeing it, or writing it, I cant believe it. Leonard's a married man, what makes it even better is that im married to my dream woman, no settling for me. More good news.... My wife is 5 months pregnant, Boy or girl, I dont know, but I do know we gonna give this child everything a child could ever want. This is the way it was supposed to be....Husband and Wife creating a baby together in a happy household. So much plans ahead of us... exciting, but the unknown is kind of scary.

I am not an accident

I fulfilled day 2 of my promise. I read day 2, it wasnt as interesting as day 1, but it confirmed some things i already knew. I was born for a reason. Even though i wasnt planned by my mother, I was brought into this world for a reason. The book says I was made exactly the way God wanted. My characterizations was all in his plan. Why would he create me with flaws? Why not create every human perfect? That is a question I hope to have an answer one day. If I was created the way God planned, that means i have to accept everything about myself. Verse to remeber: I am your creator. You were in my care before you were born.

Finding my purpose

So i bought this book titled, "The Purpose Driven Life" The book asks you to make a covenant to commit 40 consecutive days, reading a chapter per day. Today March 11, 2009 I read the first chapter. So far so good. 40 days im gonna try my hardest to blog about the valuable information I took in. I realized that I was living a self-centered life. I do think about others, and usually put others first. The person I should put 1st in life was the one on the back burner. Before my mom knew who I was, God already had me envisioned. If he created me, then he's the holder of my purpose. Im not the most spiritual person, but as i take this step into marriage, I plan to build a stronger relationship with God. Something the book say that touched my heart was " A rope made of three cords is hard to break. With God completing Joyce and I, nothing can stop us. I must learn that its not about me. I must live for God and he will reward me with great Joy and satisfaction. How can i remind myself,that im supposed to live for God and not me? Bible verse for the day, Everything got started in him, and finds its purpose in him. I really cant wait to get into day 2.

Another step towards fulfillment

How long has it been? For someone who loves to write, I should be on here every other day. I think i have a new item for goal list. From ramp agent to waste removal. You never know what's to come your way. Waste removal may sound like a shitty job (pun intended) but its a nice job. I would highly recommend this job for starters. Being that im 26, im no longer a starter. For the time being im getting by. My blessings and self fulfillment is only steps in front of me. I think im climbing each day. Once i get my financial aid together, i'll be attending college. Hopefully i get this nice paying job my uncle referred me to. In 4 mos i'll be a married man. I say that with a smile on my face. I think about the wedding more than Joyce probaly think. 1st come love then come then comes marriage, here comes the baby in the baby carriage. Lol...so gay. Im hoping this pre marital counseling will push us to have a more active relationship with God. Can i get tatted, drink alcohol, and watch porn and still have a healthy relationship with God? I see so many big things in the future. I only wish for Tianna to go though this happiness with me full-time. Living with her mom is really gonna take away from being in a happy home. Joyce gave me the responsibility of finding our new home. I dont want to hear no mouth when I say this is where we moving to. New job...school...new home...marriage... children. Im going to be a happy and blessed man. while im waiting for tomorrow, i need to focus on today. Planning is coming along fine, but we need about 7k more to be cleared from all wedding expenses. Joyce we need a loan! No matter what i know history is gonna take place July 6. I think everything is coming along good. Once i add the God factor, everything will be great.

catchn up

I been away for so long. Time just been flyin. Since my last blog, Me and wife to be, took my daughter to Disney World for her bday. We had a blast. As we watchd the disney parade, my daughters reaction brought a tear to my eye. It feels good to show my daughter the good things of life. My team (Dallas Cowboys) have been playing horribly they lost 4 of teir last 6 games. Damn shame. Romo is injured and they're playing shitty. Hopefully we make it to the wildcard playoffs. Most importantly, history was made. We have a Black president. I feel good to be part of history. The papers went like like crazy. My lady works at USA Today, and she barely was able to get a paper, luckily her airhead friend didnt know the significance of what happened and gave her, her paper. Anyway life is good, Im still in love and the days to the wedding is getting shorter

A better life awaits

Woke up bright and early for 2nd day of class. 5 boring days of sitting in class, listen to a person educate me on being a good ramp agent. From 2 days of class I gathered that i'll be overworked and underpaid, and also that if I make a mistake my life or 50+ passengers lives can depend on it (LITERALLY). Life is full of changes. I remember just yesterday when i was a Security Guard, now im in the process of being a Ramp Agent. Is that really what I really want. I mean who wouldnt want the opportunity to travel for free, or at 95% discounted fee? France. Europe. Brazil. Costa Rica. Africa. Sweden. Las Vegas. Cali. Florida. I mean the places are endless. To travel the world is a big dream of mine and wife to be. This job would make that dream a reality. As much as im siked about the free travel, its many negatives that strips away the joy of traveling for free. Im tired of being broke an unemployed, I feel like this job is a desperation move. Im so grateful to have a strong woman by my side who's keeping me grounded, but sometimes I get slightly depressed that I cant treat Wife to be. Take her to dinner. To the movies. Buy her them things that i know she will look sexy in. Growing up I had aspirations of being a lawyer. Even though i was excited of just the thought of being a lawyer, I was just to immature and misguided to realize, I was the only obstacle in those aspirations. Since then I been so lost, not knowing what i really wanted in a career. One thing that I was sure of, I wanted to live comfortably, and be able to provide for my family. Not to long ago I came across a site about becoming a plumber. Reading the site interested me about the opportunity, but the future earnings interested me more. The more I think about being accepted into the program and having a career in plumbing, I become more excited about the opportunity and less excited about the money. I havent felt this way since I was in school and wanted to be a Lawyer. Now im a mature man and know if I want this I have to go after it. Im excited about having an acquired skill. Im excited about taking this skill and being my own boss. Im exciting using this skill to earn extra cash in my spare time. Im excited about using this skill to make home improvements without having to pay another man. Im excited about being a real estate investor and being able to fix up, my own investment. Im excited about bartering my skill for another persons skill, such as an electrician. Yes im excited about being able to live life comfortably. October 7, I plan to apply and take the test to get accepted in Plumbing apprenticeship program. If I dont get accepted, what steps can I do to chase this opportunity? I dont need to be a ramp agent to travel. We just will have to finance our vacations. If we can afford it, then why not. Ramp Agent or not, our traveling dreams will be fulfilled. So am I wasting my time going through ramp agent training when i honestly dont want to be a ramp agent. As the instructor speaks, and my future co-workers, sit enthusiastically, and talk about how they cant wait to start and someday become lead ramp agents, I ask myself why am i here? Is money that much of a necessity that im willing to take any job thats offered to me? To me. I guess it is. Tomorrow is day 3, being in a place i know I dont belong. Today the instructor went around class and told people individually, what he think would be their best contribution as a ramp agent. He skipped me and 3 other people. Is it because i'm sending off signals that says I dont belong, or this isnt the job for me. Or is it because he think im not capable of being a good ramp agent. Nah it cant be that, every job I had, I was one of the best. If I actually give my all I wont be one of the best, I will be THE BEST. Today as i was web browsing, something inside said go to church. I know I need to go. I know I need to pray. I know I need to believe. I know I need to have faith. I know something better awaits. Its time for change. Where do I start?
Its time to go for what I want and not for whats giving to me.

short on energy

Finally went to sleep at 4am, and I'm up at 6am. First day of training... So tired I honestly dont know how i made it through 8hrs of sitting at desk in a classroom setting. Dont know how but I made it home safely, Good thing for autopilot. I got my nap in, So im up and ready to root for them Boys in blue. My girl is an Eagle fan so shes on my bad side, until the night is over with... unless my team lose... then i'll give it a week. My girl (BTW her name is Joyce) been endorsing google reader for so long, and now she got me hooked. So im getting my worldly news as i count down for kickoff. Well whats a football game without fattening snacks, Im headed out to get some grub for my private football party.