dont like this feeling

Beautiful today, but not in the best of mood to enjoy it. Being home majority of the time is starting to become depressing, and not having no dough makes it rougher. Everything just feel so different, i dont feel that sexual spark with my wife right now ( i have it, i dont think she does). I just feel so insignificant, hopefully when school start all this will pass. I just feel like taking a long car ride. Feels like my only companion is the little one

God is Good

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!. After months of waiting, i finally received the news. Financial Aid has been awarded. Best thing is, the grant covers the whole semester, so I dont even have to use the loan i been awarded. Everything is a go, that little bit of skeptism has been erased. May 17 will be the first day in preparing for my career. God is good

Falling into place

im backkkkkkkk. I need to stop neglecting you and my love for writing. Its been so long and I have so much to say, but i'll try to give the quick and narrowed down version. Major life change number 1, I am now a father of 2. Zoe Soleil Richards was born Dec 29, 2009. She is a truly a blessing that was created with the help of unconditional, and unadulterated love. Our home is coming together, we have a nice 2bdroom apt that still a work in progress but its coming along nicely. Finally got my hdtv, and watching it with the wife by my side is the best, and videogaming is breathtaking. i had so much to say, but the hunger is diverting my focus. Im so hungryyyyy, i had salad and 2 boiled eggs. thats not a meal for a man like me. Hmmmmmm, did you know im headed back to school? .......yup, im doing it. With the moral support im getting from my wife, my confidence is at 100. I can do this, and im gonna do this. i decided im gonna be a school teacher, the last thing on earth i ever considered as a profession, is so perfect for me. God was waiting for me to come around, and follow the path he had planned for me, and he put the perfect person in my life to help me get on track. I am so readyyyy. FAFSA wheres my effing money so i can get this ball rolling??? My pockets is screaming to be fed, but i am a still happy, even though these evil forces keep trying to grab at me. sorry to cut it short but im hungry, and can not focus