dont like this feeling

Beautiful today, but not in the best of mood to enjoy it. Being home majority of the time is starting to become depressing, and not having no dough makes it rougher. Everything just feel so different, i dont feel that sexual spark with my wife right now ( i have it, i dont think she does). I just feel so insignificant, hopefully when school start all this will pass. I just feel like taking a long car ride. Feels like my only companion is the little one

God is Good

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!. After months of waiting, i finally received the news. Financial Aid has been awarded. Best thing is, the grant covers the whole semester, so I dont even have to use the loan i been awarded. Everything is a go, that little bit of skeptism has been erased. May 17 will be the first day in preparing for my career. God is good

Falling into place

im backkkkkkkk. I need to stop neglecting you and my love for writing. Its been so long and I have so much to say, but i'll try to give the quick and narrowed down version. Major life change number 1, I am now a father of 2. Zoe Soleil Richards was born Dec 29, 2009. She is a truly a blessing that was created with the help of unconditional, and unadulterated love. Our home is coming together, we have a nice 2bdroom apt that still a work in progress but its coming along nicely. Finally got my hdtv, and watching it with the wife by my side is the best, and videogaming is breathtaking. i had so much to say, but the hunger is diverting my focus. Im so hungryyyyy, i had salad and 2 boiled eggs. thats not a meal for a man like me. Hmmmmmm, did you know im headed back to school? .......yup, im doing it. With the moral support im getting from my wife, my confidence is at 100. I can do this, and im gonna do this. i decided im gonna be a school teacher, the last thing on earth i ever considered as a profession, is so perfect for me. God was waiting for me to come around, and follow the path he had planned for me, and he put the perfect person in my life to help me get on track. I am so readyyyy. FAFSA wheres my effing money so i can get this ball rolling??? My pockets is screaming to be fed, but i am a still happy, even though these evil forces keep trying to grab at me. sorry to cut it short but im hungry, and can not focus

Football season begin

What a day, what a day. So many annoyances. Easy route, but a normally short day turned into a long one, because of this bs assignment we had to do in the morning. Seem like every dog today wanted to bark, can you say headache. I even contemplated stomping on a dog's snout today ( and they call Vick cruel). Today is the start of the football season, Steelers vs the Titans, dont care who win, but i hope my fantasy qb (big Ben) put up some big numbers tonight. I planned on going to Fridays to watch the game, eat some wings and maybe drink a long island, but its getting kind of late. I still have to shower and shave (maybe masturbate) feelin horny for no apparent reason. Read day 3 and it lifted me up. I find out TT isnt wearing her glasses at school, that girl she gonna do what sh think she can get away with. I think she will run wild unless she's under my control, Im starting to get a sense that her mom cant handle her. Kickoff is mins away, let me get ready. Wish i had some snacks :(

home sweet home

Finally made it home. Seem like I was at work forever. Days like this make me just say eff it and quit. Be patient. My blessings are coming. Patience is something i have to work. Sometime i want what i want ASAP. Tomorrow's gonna be another long day, have to attend an event in the morning, before i start my route. *sigh*.........Business is over, let me enjoy my relaxation period.

Another day

3 blogs in 2 days not bad at all. Pat on the back for me (lol). Went to work, nothing unusual. The day went by smoothly minus, bug bites, and another day of seeing and smelling dog poop. I di my 8 hours, and left business behind until tomorrow. Went to the grocery store got a few items. Even picked up carrotcake. Some o the things i like now, was so eewww to me. Thank you Lord fo sending me someone who can open my taste to different things (love you Joyce). Feels so good to be home, made me a pb and j sandwich, actually it was 2. Im so tempted to make another, but i know dinner is a few short hours away. I can mange. last night i read some previous blogs, and was kind of disappointed that i started something and didnt finish. In order to accomplish goals, I have to finish what I start. I said a little prayer, and began Purpose Driven Life again...FROM THE BEGINNING. read day 1 , 39 days to go. Wife gets off at 9p, so let me shower so i can be fresh for her. Maybe if i spray on some smell good, i might get some tonight.....I'll keep my fingers croosed

A plan

I been moving in all directions, making life a hassle. Should i do this or should i do that. I wanna be this, I wanna be that. Now that i finally made a decision with the help of my wife, I can move forward with the plans, and work on being a good provider for my family. Unc told me about a job opportunity and what i had to do to qualify for the job. I have my license to ride on a boat, and i get cpr license next week. With the lord Blessing, this job will be mine. This job will be a big step in moving closer to our goals. Job with better pay, school, New home, new car, influential black make teacher, I see a promising future ahead